Fuck him.

Well, its official. After a long conversation with my biological sperm donor father he has decided to inform me that he will definitely not be attending my wedding. Normally I let the things he has done or should I say hasn't done slide but this is pretty major. He won't even attend the 15 minute ceremony. Its funny because I never thought it would bug me but I guess it does because here I am writing about it. Hes an effin asshole. Who the hell walks away from their family? What an insensitive man he is. I feel sorry for him. I feel sorry that when he dies noone will be there to cry for him, and miss him, because we have all done that enough while he is alive. We have gave him endless chances to have a life being our father. Fuck him. I hope he is cold and lonely when he's old. I wish I saved all the tears I cryed over him so I could fuckin drown him in them.

Thank god for Uncle Bill, a birth certificate doesn't mean shit. He's my real dad damnit :-). ( is this enough swearing for you tasty?)

Heres a poem I wrote the prick.. lemme know how I can fix it up Bee!!

Walk Away..

I have so many questions
So much is left to say
How do you just close your eyes
And make it go away?

How are you so insensitive?
What kind of person are you?
To write off your own family
What did we ever do?

I’m supposed to be the child
When will you ever see?
You chose to leave when I was 10
How can u blame that on me?

You said you were going to work
That was 14 years ago
That’s a pretty long shift
You could have called you know

Holidays, graduations
All the things you disregard
Not on one single birthday
Did I ever receive a card

Have I ever made you happy?
Have I ever made you proud?
You spend all your time in silence
Never saying how u feel out loud

How could you leave your children?
I’m so glad I’m not like you
If I was raised by someone so cold
I don’t know what I would do

I guess I already know the answers
This poem says so much more
You never really loved me
And it was you who closed the door

So I will no longer feel guilty
And I won’t cry after today
I learned something from you dad,
I learned how to walk away.